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Regrets

For the blog hop, I decided to talk about something very personal, my regrets.

Truth is I love things that go bump in the night… vampires are sexy, if the werewolf looks like Alcide, he can do whatever he pleases, Loki’s have to be the hottest thing in Hades… These things do not keep me up at night.

Regrets keep me up at night.

My life lately has been a mess. I feel lost, unorganized and I feel as I am just going through the motions.  Somedays I feel as I am existing and not living.

I am not sure if it is because I have a birthday coming up, or if it is because September was one of the hardest months I have had in a very long time. Whatever the reason, I feel as life is passing by and I am wasting any talents and moments given to me.

Truth is September hit me hard.

I had to let Sable go. I loved that dog so much, and yes while she was only a dog, she meant a lot to me. Even right now as I am thinking about her greeting me at the door every single day, I am tearing up. Because of Sable’s passing I found myself having regrets.

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I should have walked her more, I should have took her outside more… I should have rubbed her ears more…

At the same time Sable was dying, I found out I needed a major medical procedure, one that cost a lot of money.

Money I didn’t have.

As I was laying in bed crunching numbers I had another set of regrets coming my way… I don’t save enough, I should have taken better care of myself… I should man up and ask for that raise… again. Honestly, I should find another job….

More regrets.

I found out one of my friends died. I have not spoken much about this, because this was something that hit me very hard… and because it forced me to realize all the decisions I have made for others, and once again regrets. When someone your age dies, it makes you realize you are not guaranteed tomorrow. So you should live every day like your last… but as I laid in bed that night what did I think of?

Regrets. Regrets. Regrets

I should have called more, I should have visited more…. I should stop planning trips and go on trips… I should go back to school…

Truth is, in 3 days I will turn 31. Most people at my age have lived a pretty solid life, they have houses, kids, the white picket fence… and if they don’t, they have something to show for it… a passport filled with stamps, a stellar 401k…

I lack all of that. Sure I have a job (that I hate) and amazing family but I lack something.

As I was thinking about what is lacking, a lightbulb went off and I realized I lack follow through. I intend on doing something, will plan it and then stop short of accomplishing it.

Now I know myself, and I know that I often will worry about the bad (my nickname is stormy little rain cloud for a very good reason) so it is time to wake up and realize I control my destiny.

The only one that can force regrets on myself is me. I am the reason I have regrets not others.

So I decided that when I turn 40. I may still have regrets (I am human) but I will have learned to follow through and do what I want in life.

It is time to take control of my destiny.

So how am I going to do this you ask?

Starting in October… every month I am going to pick something I have always wanted to do and do it… whether it is a project, a trip or learning how to write the numbers 1-10 in Mandarin. I am going to do something. As I am a blogger and love my little space in cyberspace I am of course going to share these experiences with the world. I am going to call the series, living life without regret 🙂

This month was about admitting my regrets & issue with following through and OH I am going to figure out how to string that damn sewing machine!!!

Now it is time to do something about it.

What are your regrets? How do you live life without regret??

Sunset at the Pier

If you haven’t been to Clearwater, FL.  I highly encourage you to visit.   I have been lucky to see quite a few sunsets in my life but the sunsets in Clearwater are truly magical.

We were told Sunset at the Pier is a very popular activity, so we figured we had a little time before picking up my best friend at the airport. So off we went.OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

We drove the 5 minutes, and parked and walked out onto the white sandy beaches, and realized this was going to be a beautiful night.

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The February air was chilly, but all in all, the night was beautiful.

It is nights like these that I wish I was an amazing photographer, that can capture the moment.

we spent a fair amount of time taking photos of the sunset, walking the pier to look at everything the vendors were selling, watching the very brave birds get up close and personal with the tourists.

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It was the perfect night to start our time in Florida.

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Jen vs The Cubicle

I am pretty good with change, but when I was trying to decide on a new name for my Texas Travel Girl website I just couldn’t let it go.  I love the name too much, but at the same time I felt it was not “right” for what I wanted to do.

At the Delicate Arch
At the Delicate Arch

So I thought long and hard about it and I decided two sites would work better for me, and I always joke that my main goal in life is to escape my cubicle as often as possible, and the name Cubicle Escapee was  born.

Truth is, I often feel as if I am battling my cubicle. 

I hate working in a cubicle, zero sunlight, I stare at a computer all day, so much time is spent on the phone, and GOD help me when I am sitting next to someone that is sick and hacking up a lung (eww!) .. it is truly dreadful.  Yes, I have looked for something a little more exciting and I have found those jobs tend to offer 10 WHOLE DAYS in PTO.  I currently have 25.

No thanks,  I will take this cubicle over some other dreadful job that gives only 10 measly days.

for now anyway

Even as a child I loved traveling, especially trips to the beach :)
Even as a child I loved traveling, especially trips to the beach 🙂

I don’t really just escape my cubicle for International travel, although believe me I do try to plan that as often as possible, but I find that weekends are a great way to escape too. There are a lot of wonderful escapes out there.

"running" a local race, I struggled, but then again I could have been at work...
“running” a local race, I struggled, but then again I could have been at work…

I am dedicating this site to the every day person, who works and has to use their days off & PTO to travel.   People like me.

I will write about saving money for that RTW trip I am dreaming of taking.  I however will not be doing this trip for a VERY long time, so these posts won’t be too overwhelming, until I decide to get serious about it.  I only have $18 in my savings for that trip, I know I want to do it, but I need a few things to line up first.  So while I save casually I need a few debts to end before I can get really serious about it. All my Rio 2016 posts will be here from now on too.  I am very serious about getting to Rio for the Olympics. It will be a once in a lifetime opportunity.  The first Olympics in South America?  Count me in.  Even if I am eating rice & ramen for every meal in 2016. 🙂

I will write about food, road trips, budgets, flights & international trips, when I finally take one.  There will be a lot of Disney, Nerdy trips & possibly  a book review or two (especially when I am broke and all I can afford to do is get to and from work!) If it involves being away from work, it will be here 🙂

I will defeat this blasted cubicle

Sometimes Pixie Dust maybe needed to escape
Sometimes Pixie Dust maybe needed to escape

When I take a cheap trip, which I do often, I will let you know how I did.

Us Cubicle Junkies have to stick together after all!  Because, any cubicle junkie knows, you really must escape as often as possible or you will go INSANE! 

Thanks for coming around. 🙂