Regrets

Note this post was featured on Texas Travel Girl for the Souls Around the World Blog Hop, but I feel it is just as relevant on this site as that one.  I did remove the giveaways.
For the blog hop, I decided to talk about something very personal, my regrets.

Truth is I love things that go bump in the night… vampires are sexy, if the werewolf looks like Alcide, he can do whatever he pleases, Loki’s have to be the hottest thing in Hades… These things do not keep me up at night.

Regrets keep me up at night.

My life lately has been a mess. I feel lost, unorganized and I feel as I am just going through the motions.  Somedays I feel as I am existing and not living. 

I am not sure if it is because I have a birthday coming up, or if it is because September was one of the hardest months I have had in a very long time. Whatever the reason, I feel as life is passing by and I am wasting any talents and moments given to me.

Truth is September hit me hard.

I had to let Sable go. I loved that dog so much, and yes while she was only a dog, she meant a lot to me. Even right now as I am thinking about her greeting me at the door every single day, I am tearing up. Because of Sable’s passing I found myself having regrets.

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I should have walked her more, I should have took her outside more… I should have rubbed her ears more…

At the same time Sable was dying, I found out I needed a major medical procedure, one that cost a lot of money.

Money I didn’t have.

As I was laying in bed crunching numbers I had another set of regrets coming my way… I don’t save enough, I should have taken better care of myself… I should man up and ask for that raise… again. Honestly, I should find another job….

More regrets.

I found out one of my friends died. I have not spoken much about this, because this was something that hit me very hard… and because it forced me to realize all the decisions I have made for others, and once again regrets. When someone your age dies, it makes you realize you are not guaranteed tomorrow. So you should live every day like your last… but as I laid in bed that night what did I think of?

Regrets. Regrets. Regrets

I should have called more, I should have visited more…. I should stop planning trips and go on trips… I should go back to school…

Truth is, in 3 days I will turn 31. Most people at my age have lived a pretty solid life, they have houses, kids, the white picket fence… and if they don’t, they have something to show for it… a passport filled with stamps, a stellar 401k…

I lack all of that. Sure I have a job (that I hate) and amazing family but I lack something.

As I was thinking about what is lacking, a lightbulb went off and I realized I lack follow through. I intend on doing something, will plan it and then stop short of accomplishing it.

Now I know myself, and I know that I often will worry about the bad (my nickname is stormy little rain cloud for a very good reason) so it is time to wake up and realize I control my destiny.

The only one that can force regrets on myself is me. I am the reason I have regrets not others.

So I decided that when I turn 40. I may still have regrets (I am human) but I will have learned to follow through and do what I want in life.

It is time to take control of my destiny.

So how am I going to do this you ask?

Starting in October… every month I am going to pick something I have always wanted to do and do it… whether it is a project, a trip or learning how to write the numbers 1-10 in Mandarin. I am going to do something. As I am a blogger and love my little space in cyberspace I am of course going to share these experiences with the world. I am going to call the series, living life without regret 🙂

This month was about admitting my regrets & issue with following through and OH I am going to figure out how to string that damn sewing machine!!!

Now it is time to do something about it.

What are your regrets? How do you live life without regret??

Wordless Wednesday

after talking with a fellow blogger Ashley , I decided I am going to take part in Wordless Wednesday.  So here is my picture for my first ever Wordless Wednesday post… I think this is going to be a fun weekly post 🙂

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My 2013 Fall Reading List

Sooo. My first book list went ok… I didn’t finish it, my biggest issue was starting other books.  All in all I read 23 books this summer, and only half them came from my list. 🙂  This season I decided I am going to be ALL about finishing series that I have started but have not finished.  That is the goal this season.  I want to get caught up on unfinished book series.   Plus I have a bad habit of starting new series prior to finishing the old 🙂 It is time to finish what I started and finish all these series this Fall.  My list is huge, so I may not make it through all of them, but given it is Fall and that is the start of the best time to curl up with a book and a drink.  Game on 🙂

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1. 50 shades Freed
Honestly I am not a fan of the first two books (I know that will shock about 50 Gazillion women out there) but honestly the books are eh to me, but as I am sick of hearing people lecture me about not finishing the series.  I plan on finishing it.  Plus I need to know before the movie comes out.  If I go see it.
2. Allegiant
Read my Review HERE

3. Bud’s Christmas Wish
Read my Review HERE

4. Reborn
Read my Review HERE

5. Succubus Dreams (Georgina Kincaid Series book 4)
Read my Review HERE

6. Succubus Heat (Georgina Kincaid Series book 4)
Read my Review HERE

7. Succubus Shadows (Georgina Kincaid Series book 5)
Read my Review HERE

8. Succubus Revealed (Georgina Kincaid Series book 6)
Read my Review HERE

9. The Lunatic Cafe 
Read  my Review HERE

10 Bloody Bones 
Read my Review  HERE

11. The Killing Dance
Read my Review HERE

12. Burnt Offerings
Read my Review HERE

13. Blue Moon
Read my Review HERE

14. Obsidian Butterly
Read my Review HERE

15. Narcissus In Chains
See number 9
16. Cerulean Sins
See number 9
17. Incubus Dreams
See number 9
18. Micah
See number 9
19. Danse Macabre
See number 9
20. The Harlequin
See number 9
21. Blood Noir
See number 9
22. Skin Trade
See number 9
23. Flirt
See number 9
24. Bullet
See number 9
25. Hit List
See number 9
26. kiss the Dead
See number 9
27. Reached
Read my Review HERE

28. City of Fallen Angels (The Mortal Instruments #4)
Read my Review HERE

29. City of Lost Souls (The MOrtal Instruments #5)
See number 28
30. City of Heavenly Fire (The Mortal Instruments #6)
See number 28
31. Torment (Fallen #2)
I really loved the first book, but like always I got sidetracked and started to read something else.
32. Passion (Fallen #3)
See number 31
33. Rapture (Fallen #4)
See number 31
34. The Scorch Trials (Maze Runner #2)
The first book was interesting but due to me having to read a million books at once I have put the rest of the trilogy on the back burner. thanks to SDCC I have heard it gets better so we shall see.
35. The Deathe Cure (Maze Runner #3)
See number 34
36. Dead in the Family (Sookie stackhouse #10) Read
Read my review HERE

37. Dead Reckoning (Sookie Stackhouse #11)
Read my review HERE

38. Deadlocked (Sookie Stackhouse #12)
Read my review HERE

39. Dead Ever After
See number 36
40. House of Hades
Read my review HERE

Getting a last minute ticket to Maze Runner

First let me start off by saying, for whatever reason I just can’t get my life under control these days. Texas Travel girl is down and out, can’t get it back up and running, and I just can’t get caught up on here with my posts.

I of course blame my cubicle.

Anyway, I am about to go out of town a lot in September, so needless to say if I don’t get caught up soon… well I am going to be in a mess 😉

Anyway, while I was at SDCC, I stayed on twitter as much as possible, so when I saw the opportunity to get into the Nerd HQ Maze Runner panel I retweeted what they asked me to.

Within 30 minutes I found out I won.

Now when it comes to the movie, I didn’t really know much about who was cast in it, but I do know the book, and know that I love the book. In fact follow the author on twitter, because I enjoy his books & tweets for the #DashnerArmy.

So when I found out I won,  I was pretty excited.

However I was not nearly as excited as the young girls that actually bought the tickets.

It took me straight back to high school, when all my classmates were obsessed with Leo. Except these girls were obsessed with…OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

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Dylan O’Brien… Let me start of by saying I have NO CLUE who this kid is… but believe me the 150 plus girls in here did and thanks to that I felt old. Since I have turned 30 I have never felt old, until I went to this panel.

Sure he is cute… but I am 30… and I don’t even know if he is of legal age… so I am not going any further than that. I will let the teen girl in your life tell you about him.  I promise she knows who he is.

The panel was great, and I feel in love with the Nerd HQ atmosphere. The panel was pretty much Q&A and conversational. If I go back to SDCC next year, I know I will buy more Nerd HQ tickets. The atmosphere is refreshing from the chaotic wonderful mess that is SDCC plus the money goes to a great cause.  Win Win.

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As a fan of the book, I was very interested in hearing and possibly seeing the Grievers. For the record we didn’t see them because I am pretty sure they girls just wanted to hear about Dylan, but hey I was a teenage girl once, and I just went with the flow.

However, at the end of the panel  the cast left, then came back and showed us a very raw and uncut footage of the film.

and let me just say… it looks AMAZING, and that was the raw uncut footage.  I can’t imagine what editing will do.

I know what I will be doing on Valentine’s Day.

Also I do want to share, that while I was in the AC watching this panel, my parents & little brother snagged passes to see Escape, the world Premier film that stars Stallone and Schwarzenegger.

My family waiting to get into the theater
My family waiting to get into the theater

So not only did this panel make me feel old as hell, I missed a chance to be up close with two amazing action stars but that is the nature of the choosing at SDCC a choice will make you miss out on something else awesome.

Note: the panel pictures are not great, because for some odd reason I could not get the ISO to work on my camera properly… so just pretend they are some amazing award winning pictures that being said, don’t worry ladies… The pictures are very yummy from the the Joe Manganiello panel. 😉 Now him… yeah I felt very much young at heart… Stay Tuned.

Just escape the cubicle already

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