So I am on the brink of major life changes, I am completely and utterly about to change my life in ways I only dreamed of.
I am currently at a crossroads in my life, I never in my life thought I would be living the life I am at 33 and I guess I am not really the happiest I thought it would be, so recently I had a light bulb moment and realized that if I want my life to change I am going to have to change my life.
I have to stop waiting for others to change, people are who they are.
I have to stop expecting my job to change, it isn’t.
I have to stop expecting people to help me change, they are busy with their own lives.
I have to change my life.
Which I have started to do. I just want to stress that you can change your life no matter how old you may be. Sure there are some people at work judging me for my decisions I can tell by the way they speak to me, but you know what for the first time I feel a sense of peace and I really do not care what this person thinks anyway. I no longer have to pretend to like her.
I have been slowly overhauling my life since I realized that your life can change in an instant. I will always carry what my friend told me that day
“My son woke up that morning thinking it was a normal day, not his last day”
Again, I don’t know why these words affected me the way they did, but they did. They made me realize that no matter how hard I might try I am not going to cheat death, and I if I was to die today, I would have a few regrets. I will have more if I don’t change. I realize that my life changes are semi-drastic but I have slept harder the past few weeks than I have in months because I am at peace with what I want to do, I am making decisions for me and I am happy with that. I know it is the right thing to do for me, and what might be right for me is not right for everyone.
Which is why I am quitting my job and pursuing something I a passionate about.
A lot of people think I am crazy, I do get paid well… but no amount of money is worth being unhappy. I am unhappy. I have had major issues at work and they are issues that the other party involved can’t overcome. So I am leaving and I am ok with it.
The next change is cutting toxic people from my life. We all have those people in our lives that constantly judge, manipulate because they are not happy with their own decisions. I refuse to be one of those people, I want to be the person in someone’s live that is a positive force, not the negative force. I have become incredibly negative since I became a claims adjuster. I am done I am not going to be that person anymore, I believe in the good of people, each year it has gotten worse.
This isn’t all that is happening in my life but this is the start of something amazing & I am incredibly happy with my decisions.
I want to be the change I want to see in the world so I am going to live my life that way.